迷路當中？
上一個post離這個也蠻久了，
其實我也蠻懶惰寫什麽似的，只是突然間想寫點東西
隨便來這裡寫寫吧
這一次也沒什麼大不了
老師常說，世界上最大的危機就是沒有危機意識
而我自己其實思想一片空白
即使知道自己想要著什麽，有著什麽樣的夢想，
有著自己的目標，必須做的事，
然而就是一而再的寵著自己，自我保護自己，放縱自己
一直曉得自己需要一個突破，好讓自己前進
記得嵇老師那天在美夢成真時說，做事要天天做天天做，既然就容易了
也不知道爲什麽，也許對自己有很大的期望，
總是感覺到無數的壓力，
就因為成功不能等，孝順不能等，健康更是不能等，
要成功就要以父母的歲數衡量
老師說，今天的生活是三年前做出的決定，
如果今天還是不滿意現狀覺得不是很理想，就要設法改變，今天一個決定改變三年後的我
我就知道它很簡單，也知道它的確不難
難是難在一個人怎樣徹底地放下身段，放開胸懷去包容一個人
老師也說，成功人有2放，放下身段，放開身懷
失敗人也有2放，放棄夢想與希望，放棄學習與改變
也許還在尋找一個刻苦銘心的理由，
讓自己全力以赴的一個理由
改變自己未來無論如何也勝過改變其他改變不了的東西
一步一步走，夢想起飛，展望未來，
敢夢感想為夢想努力~！加油吧！
Written by MunFai
11:45:00 PM
You dont belong here.
yes, it actually came out with something minor happening around.
but well, humans just do have their own feelings, and yes, up and down of their feelings.
right, so the thing is, dont read this if you dont belong to the same situation or feeling as i am.
i advice you to close the window as there will be some personal opinions around this post.
no, im not going to throw up some bombastic or vulgar words out.
yes, absolutely no.
what i want to say is that,
what do you really think when you join a group and be active in it,
by the next year and the coming years, they just dont count u in anymore?
no more interaction with the group, and you are just virtually dying over there.
yeah right.
this is what actually happening.
frankly, from this way of handling or management whatever it is called,
i dont see any reason why you joined in and okay, after learning how to do this type of things,
then by the next year,
you are not involve anymore and the incoming batches just did the same thing and the cycles just keep going on.
but, do you actually ever realize, what do you learn or get eventually when you're being the experienced one and in responsible to guide and teach the incoming batches?
you know what you learn.
and so,
those chosen to be in the management level are the only one eligible to do the guidance around?
yes, they might have the quality.
but hey, dont you think others should be given the oppoturnity as well?
well, maybe not in management, but the guidance?
they just seems to be like normal peoples that need to sharpen their skills of guiding people perhaps?
you have your own reason and own view,
we have our owns too man.
things are to be sorted out fair anf square,
and of course, hopefully beneficial to all parties.
but, some places are way too polluted that some things that you wanted for doesnt exist.
especially in this kind of society?
i seriously have no right of criticising anyone,
thus, for what i have said,
i refer it as a general topic,
for those who the matters personally,
im not the one to be blamed as im not referring it to anyone any parties in particular.
will continue ths blog posting some other time when i have some issues to mention about.
till then,
goodbye and take care.
Written by MunFai
11:34:00 PM
重新出發
哦，這也不是什麽大事
看著這部落格荒廢到了極點， 加上隨著當天看見幾位朋友一一在面子書上分享一本小說，對，是小說。
那也算是我大大的破例了，一直以來都保持著除了金庸系列的小說以外，再也不動任何書，
嗯啦，就知道自己本身是多么的不愛讀書，不管是什麽書。
不過，出自于強烈的好奇心，看見那么多的朋友分享關於此書，
就毫不猶豫的在網上尋找了那么小說來閱讀一下，
一本簡單的小說訴說著作者的過去和經歷，可讓我這讀者幻想著還在念國小及國中的那段時間，
雖然不及別人的那么精彩，但也說是回味無窮，何況再加上作者的經歷，
真讓人好想好想的回到過去
一個出自平凡的作者就這樣寫出了他的故事，
不知是不是每個人都愛寫作，
其實有時我本身也不例外，
只不過因而自己文筆過度極差，所以就沒什麽寫了寫東西
想就此借個機會讓自己提筆發揮，
不管自己文筆多差，不受認同，
但站在自己的發揮空間，
是沒什麽人阻止的了的，
再說，這也應該沒觸犯什麽國法吧，
恩恩，就這樣慢慢決定，
慢慢的發現靈感，
寫著一些簡單的故事，
然而，我想，有時候或許會無意中侵犯版權或私隱，
深感抱歉
Written by MunFai
3:10:00 PM
Removal.
Apparently, i did some changes particularly removal on both blog and facebook.
Not big changes,
but do still hope its goes better, in my sight i guess =)
in facebook, i eventually removed 300 names off my friends list, lol, because the name isnt familiar or i dont know them. do not ask me why i added them before this, there is a reason behind everything you do. dont ya?
yes, well, here in the blog itself, i actually removed the chatbox, yeah because, first of all, not important though as nowadays peoples chat through facebook, messenger, etc etc.
and besides, edited the width of the posting box so that everything wont be squeeze into a tiny one.
i actually intend to write some other things here, but so happen that i have forgotten what was that, i prefer to end it right now and will be hoping i can write a new post real soon. bye.
Written by MunFai
11:51:00 PM
Wrong Decision.
yeap, as the title of the topic has said,
perhaps i made the wrong decision this time.
it wasnt a big matter about what kind of thing is it,
its just a matter that the decisions is a little bit related to my love ones,
yes,
it was only a week after the mid sem break,
but i realized i was a little bit not used to the enviroment back in the hostel the day i went back,
i was thinking that maybe i should go home by weekends then,
then it came to thursday when i actually got a call from home saying what happen and so on.
nothing big deal.
but still managed to get to know the something about it.
then i said i was wondering whether to go home or not by weekend since there isnt any extra cocurricular activities by this week but i will have to get back on sunday for zaba's PT.
well, she told me to come back without knowing which day exactly that i should get back to my uni.
and so,
it was me in the house and finally i told them when should i be back to uni.
before this i had also thought about it for quite some time because lets say if i really goes home on day 1 and go back to uni on the following day,
it would be a waste of time, petrol and yes the toll fee.
which is why i wasnt quite happy right now as i actually had a small argument over this small matter.
and now, i dont feel good.
it shouldnt be the way i wanted my house to be.
hardly i felt not so happy about this place.
knowing that my actions are wrong right now,
but the only thing i could do is just wait till the time comes and i'll just get back to uni quietly.
things werent going so well recently.
its been alot of of obstacles.
maybe,
if i would just stay in hostel alone would be much more better compared to the situation right now.
although in hostel i will still be alone and rot and emo myself over there, but then there is one thing that i dont have to worry is that i didnt do anything wrong to this family by asking them to come and fetch me just because i wanted to go back so badly.
but now,
the thing is different,
i made the wrong thing and now i dont really know what to do.
i would feel very bad and guilty if i insist to back uni by tomorrow then.
but if not, i will be letting my team down although i am only a small character in the team,
yet i know every small character plays an important role in it.
well, its a way to pave my way in order to go a little bit further in this journey.
now i am so stuck here,
felt so uncomfortable that i was like only a passers-by that came into this house and borrow a shelter.
i have no mood right now and i dont feel like talking to any of them right now.
because i feel so bad now.
i am so used to talk alot on whats happening in my uni everytime i got back from uni,
but this time,
it wasnt the same,
i would just keep quiet and wait until the time comes,
jeez, i will be having a sleepless night right now,
and i need someone to talk to me so that i dont feel so bad.
damn it.
its a bad bad decision and maybe i would just stay in hostel next time until there is a little more days of holidays for me then i would just get back home.
its so damn not good right now.
argh.
Written by MunFai
12:38:00 AM
A Small Change.
alright,
lets continue with this.
made a small little background changes to this blog,
hopping it to be better for me to read when i access next time. =)
i dont have some sort of special feelings right now.
but then,
first thing that i am wondering,
whether i should go back to pru office making a visit back then,
its been quite some time i didnt went back already.
yea,
i do miss them though although i did not give them any positive results.
it seems like i am not suitable for this.
i have no idea.
its often i have doubt in myself.
having problems persuading people.
well, i dont know.
but i seriously miss erim quite alot. hehe.
well, she's kind to me. and she always care for me. yes =)
i am glad.
i would just think for another time.
i dont feel like going back for official things,
i only hope to have some chats with them, listening to their jokes.
basically came home for quite some days,
most of the time staying at home.
but i know about my friends here.
knowing them too well,
i see how they treat me. jeez.
thats why most of the time,
feel like leaving this place.
other than my family,
there is no other reason for me to stay here, none.
friends are fake,
and yes,
i dont trust any of them, no matter what.
because i have lost my trust in the word "friends".
another thing in my mind,
is about her.
thinking whether to start to go for it, but slowly,
or else.
still thinking about it.
but i dont understand why is everyone asking me to go for it?
anyone out there that will ask me dont go for it?
i would like to know.
coming into uni has a new groups of friends,
i dont know how these friends will treat me,
but i hope they will be better compared to those i had before,
its almost like a nightmare.
no one will actually understand the feeling.
i dont know how to continue by now.
until the next post comes in,
take care.
Written by MunFai
1:05:00 AM
Helo There.
Alrite,
I'm back here again,
yea, using english this time, as i was quite lazy to type it in mandarin somehow.
well, it didnt make any difference when i type it in any of this two language as i understand both.
right, glad to have learn this languages since i was young, although not really good in it,
but still, as long as i am able to read and write,
that would be enough for me.
rite,
today is saturday and i am so used to go back to my very own sweet home on every weekends,
but then, somehow i made a different decision today as i am to prepare for one lab test that would be on the coming week.
for other people, this subject seems easy for them,
but for me, it might be a small obstacles for me,
i also realized that if i am to go back to my own sweet home,
i wouldnt be having the initiative to study, not even a little bit,
thats why i made such decision.
i stay in my room,
when the time that i feel there is nothing to do after watching some drama series,
i might somehow start to study, a little bit by a little bit.
realizing my laziness, this might seems to be at least better then did not study at all.
hrm, yea,
this lonely night,
seems to be so quiet and lonely,
although there is songs playing non-stop from my laptops,
but somehow sometimes i still feel bored about it,
well,
eventhough there is a room mate staying together with me,
well,
it also seems like we are on our own,
not to say we are not friends,
just,
i also dont really understands,
he basically hardly asnwers me whenever i try to talk to him,
i am not so sure he heard my voice or not,
but somehow, he just hardly answer me,
and well,
he used to get emo quite oftenly,
maybe the situations going to change in some time,
yea, we realize something.
he might be starts to be busy with his personal life .
well, i am also happy for him about it if he really did it.
so bored today,
i wish i could just find someone to talk to,
wanna do something,
but i couldnt forget about my upcoming test,
it freaks me out.
oh lol.
i wanted to gather with friends that would make stupid jokes,
at least making me laugh for quite some time before i come back again into my study mode.
anyone please?
i'm just bored today. =(
Written by MunFai
10:13:00 PM
首张中文部落格之稿
神奇，发梦也不曾想过，
我的部落格会有那么一天，
以中文推出首张稿，
虽不是稿，起码还比较好听，
恩，怎样都好，
部落格，
只是一个让我表达出我的心情，感受的地方，
纯粹于表达，
并无任何讽刺诽谤之类之事，
倘若哪句哪字尚且得罪了读者，
小的在此先行致歉，
不爱好读者，
仅可点击右上角的X格，谢谢。
对了，
从facebook里说起，
这几天，小的不知哪儿作怪，
开始写起了小的进大学后的感受，
一个关于情字的感受，
话虽说没人晓得我所说的女子是哪位，
不过，
也就此谢谢各位认识我，或不认识我的的朋友们，
谢谢你们给予我的支持。
或许不是没人都晓得小的性格，
一个虽然能在大庭广众作表演的男生，
在幕后，仍是他自己本人，
拥有不只双从性格的男生，
在面对女生生，
会有怎样的反应呢？
今天，就在此说好它吧，
他，也就是这部落格，
这故事里的男主角，
外表普通平凡，没特色，
就只摆着一副不会对人微笑的脸孔，
他，并不是大家所想的骄傲、脸黑黑，
而他，只是，不善于表达，也没怎么想去表达，
因此，通常，没必要的时刻，就这样了。
在男生队伍之中，
他，是个能玩能聊的朋友；
然则，在女生之前，
无论多少女生，
他，就只会静静地，静静地观察，
默不作声，只因为，他，身子里，
不仅拥有着男生的纯阳性格，
也带了，普通男生所没有的阴性性格。
这，不只变成了个优点，也变了他的一个缺点，
若知详情，请问主角吧，
一个在当众能演的男生，
换作在女生之前，180度旋转，
变成了安静害羞的小男孩，
这让他，就此
做了个不善于表达，害羞表达的，
男生。
失败也好，
没用也好，
没种也好，
每个人，
天生自有他的性格，
想逃，也逃不了，
勇敢面对事实，
今天，就此宣告于所有朋友们，
日后如何对待，
小的也得看得轻点儿了，
呵呵，
今天，
应该就到此搁笔吧，
直到下一张稿来临，
大家，保重了。=)
Written by MunFai
1:59:00 AM
Helo Diary.
Diary oh diary,
here i am again to speak out what in my mind today,
dairy oh diary,
i am so glad that you have been with me here since i was form 4 or 5,
you have been staying with me every single moment,
not leaving me no matter what situation.
i am so glad,
that i still have you here for me,
whenever i need you.
yes,
i am one different guy compared to other guys,
diary,
i am sure you always know what i mean,
in terms of what,
you knew it.
sometimes its an advantage for me,
however,
sometimes,
it becomes the mood spoiler,
i'm not to blame anyone on this,
because everything just happen like that.
i do always wanted to find my way to solve this,
i just dont really know when will i solve this problems.
hehehe.
i hope to explore as much as possible during my 3 years life here,
yes,
either together with all my friends, buddies or seniors,
i would like to do altogether with them,
having lesser responsibility and commitment compared to the others,
i might feel better,
but somehow humans are weird enough,
when you are given A, you wanted B,
but when when you are given B, you wanted A,
and so, you wanted both.
humans are greedy,
they want everything goes according to them,
but i always knew,
things never goes according to what we always wanted.
which is why,
i am here alone enjoying all my activities,
while some of the others have to go back to their partners,
not joining too much of the activities organized.
maybe, i was just saying maybe.
yea well,
since i am not in that group,
i dont know how does they feel when they have to do something else.
things dont goes smooth as we wanted,
i would always remember what TMK members told me,
its simple, but its one great line for me,
to be always keep in my mind.
" if you dont like something, try to change it;
if you cant change it, change your attitude."
its just meaningful enough for me.
i never regretted joining them despite haven been performing all these days,
but knowing them is my luck,
there is so much things to learn,
which i wouldnt have found it even in university,
i dont have this commitment but i do have the other one,
i know where i should go,
i know what i should do,
but sometimes,
it just dont goes right.
sometimes,
i do really hope any of you,
can talk to me,
bringing me some cheers.
then i would be happy enough to continue walking the rest of the day.
Written by MunFai
12:31:00 PM
Time Dont Wait For Us.
Everyone knows about it.
but i just really got myself to experience the significant changes.
it was just after i came into this university,
and i started realize,
everything seems taking alot of time,
and the time flies like nobody cares,
its like,
you went to take your clothes for a wash,
then by the time you came back to your room and the time has passed so much,
well,
other things that you also showing the same sign,
going for lecture classes are like so short,
compared to the time when we are in school where we always feel that the time passes so slow and hoping the classes to be ended real soon,
now, everything seems to be different.
life in uni been very good and interesting.
there are lots of activities being organize here.
joining few of them will definitely make our days occupied.
enjoy myself over here.
but not to forget,
i do still have some other friends outside,
studying or working,
wishing all of you guys be doing your best.
hoping to have another gathering real soon,
no matter primary, secondary, pre-u, TMKs, or who else,
all also i would like to meet.
but always as i do,
I still miss TMKs so so much,
especially my sis over there.
I know she wouldnt be free to read this kind of blog posting,
because she's always busy with her work everyday until late night,
sometimes i do worry about my sis,
she's the type the easily caught a flu or a fever,
i wish she would be always be healthy as she has got her family and her little baby boy to look after, =)
work is important,
however, nothing is more important compared to healthy body and your family,
i realize she wanted to go HK so badly,
and i always knew,
i was lucky enough to follow her and learn from her,
she is one person which i have,
a very special one indeed,
very tough, and very very hardworking,
very very cheerful despite her heavy workload,
but she never give up.
i know,
in order for me to be that successful like her,
i have got to follow her footsteps,
have to be hardworking,
giving out my time,
keeping the trust given by boss,
and not to be scare and afraid,
the time has actually arrived.
if i dont do it now,
i wont be having free time soon.
jie, you'll be always here for me dont you?
^^
Written by MunFai
1:05:00 AM
Out Of A Sudden, May Not Be A Return.
well,
i know its been some time i didnt say anything here to you, my blog.
one thing as always,
i am lazy.
somehow today,
my feeling just dont goes good,
it feels so uneasy.
things be going differently,
no one will ever know where and who am i referring to,
its just like,
it feels so left out and its like not in the part of the big family anymore.
no longer receives any energy giving + motivation mails from them,
i can actually be 100% sure that they dont actually read blogs or whatsoever,
because they been used to running around to get more and more customers.
the only things that they do using their internet was like checking emails and sending motivation emails to all of us.
now its no longer getting this kind of mails,
perhaps i knew the reason behind it,
but well,
its always the negative thinking beyond human's natural.
human will be always thinking the bad ways instead of the good ways.
it somehow be like left out.
and,
it just dont feel good.
i seriously be missing them very much,
especially the sis thats bringing me into this field.
jie,
bro's been missing you so much lately.
but then,
have you ever know hard heavy the feeling is when bro is not able to join you all for any of the activities together,
not even one.
bro's not good here,
jie...........
Written by MunFai
5:59:00 PM
JB Hero's Blog
LOLz,
got to know only by yesterday,
by request of our "good good" Mr Xero.
yes, the name i using by now will mostly of the IGN.
well, i was still wondering why there is really a need to make this.
well, frankly speaking,
as i actually know IreneLai will spend his time inside the game,
wonder how often would the blog be updated.
well, there isnt any much thing to be share somehow,
this is only what i think.
yea, basically i threw my blog aside for quite some time.
was so lazy of posting and thinking any better topics to write it out.
i will never have any keen interest like what my friend did as in his 365 blog of photos.
my blog, simple as usual,
like a diary to me.
but,
its only a diary writing about feelings,
not the daily routine.
it would be bored if everyday writes about daily routine.
oh btw,
i think there isnt many people in JB Hero know english well.
not a offence ,
but just that,
they seems like understand english, as in the very basics.
except for those who holds a position inside JB,
somehow, there is still one two that understand.
let's hope that JB will continue to succeed as in anything,
especially the war. yup. need much more improvement on it.
besides,
more people should be talking and have fun.
this is the place for us to have fun,
not hatred.
yes,
i will still say it,
if your unable to accept all the jokes that we had,
anything, whatever it is,
then please be quiet.
oh well, at least xero and danny still can play jokes around with me,
together with son and skybird.
sort of missing zackson quite much,
he's another fun guy to mix around.
can say that basically make some friends inside,
although never see face-to-face before,
yet,
still appreciate this kind of virtual friendship.
its a good one indeed,
cause,
when there isnt anyone to listen to you,
or you just wanna speak out to some strangers,
which can be trusted,
here's the place.
it would be great to be here.
if everything and situation allows,
wuji will be in this JB forever.
provided, there is no hatred and backstabbing around.
wuji would be glad to have a happy family inside.
hehe =D
so,
before i forget, JB Hero's link,
for the heroes in JB,
the last but not least,
reminding all again,
for those who doesnt really like my character or any other thing in this blog or game,
feel free to click the X button of your window,
i will greatly appreciate that.
weeeeee...
cheers to all =)
until we meet again in the next post,
take care. =)
Written by MunFai
11:33:00 AM
Open-Eyed Day.
Alright!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Back with another post.
Something new, and it's totally different experience from what we see everyday.
yea yea.
was actually going for a interview+orientation work day.
it's, yea so called to make an observation about the trainee about his/her attitude and so on.
yup,
that's the thing then.
so, attached to a trainer.
followed him the whole day.
yeah, the whole job basically about creating some awareness and promoting some products as well.
that's not the main thing i'm going to say.
what i saw from today's routine was like,
there's trully the another side of the society in our country.
especially in KL area.
yea, i went up to KL today.
hey,
so for everyone's information,
especially those that have read the 2008 Dewan Masyarakat October Issue,
you will definitely know the issue.
the scene is completely the same,seriously.
everything you read inside.
urm yea, i just meant the scene,
the location is just somewhere around then,
not those mention inside.
but, i dont think there's much difference there anyway.
that's the thing there.
it's a whole new experience to see this,
especially for people like us,
who would never ever going to experience this,
and, those who will never step into this kind of place,
yes,
i actually saw it today. it's a,whoa.
holy......
well,
for once we saw this is enough for us i think,
everything is just about experiece.
not bad,
you will open your eyes big big there.
cheers. =)
all for now.
before the next post comes,
or by the time i get a second job,
will be some other new experience for me.
take care everyone.
Written by MunFai
9:26:00 PM
Hoping To Revive It.
Yeap,
was busy preparing for my exam and i actually put away everything about blogging.
now that the exam has gone,
i was hoping i will be able to revive the whole blog.
first of all,
i might need to get a change for this blog skin,
it seems not so suitable anymore.
perhaps.
urm,
probably it would take some time for me.
seems easy to do.
i was just lazy to go ahead about it.
today is just the 3rd day after my exam.
just feel like continue playing and playing until i have the mood to begin every single job.
phew.
thats all for now.
take care everyone.
Written by MunFai
10:34:00 AM
SomeThing Thought To be Realized.
right,
i start to believe how good is a diary for everyone.
diary in a way that people write down their feelings and their daily rountines or some special incident that they encountered on that particular day,
but not those diary that people write down their plans and so on that type.
Realizing that this blog is only for me to post whatever i felt,
and,
there wont be any readers out there,
it actually doesnt bother me and i dont have any worries of any of my things getting spread out there,
which i think would be so unpleasant for me.
yeah right.
right,
most of the time that i would be blogging here would be the moment i didnt feel so happy.
perhaps.
i need somewhere/release (i dont know any better terms) out my feelings and no one would ever know,yeah, including my parents and friends.
i personally know whats the reasons.
used to encounter certain problems or felt so unhappy for some particular reasons,
realized that after a long sleep,
i would have feel better after that.
but then,
how about before sleep?
people always say,
do something that you like whenever you feel unhappy so that you may cheer yourself up.
yeah right,
why does this doesnt happen to me?
i think.
life's been so dull and there is something i dont have in my life.
something that is quite important for everyone of us.
yes,
i know, without this thing we would still survive,
but then,
with this thing around us,i think that the life would have been more colourful.
the thing just doesnt seems to be with me,
some factors behind it.
there's nothing to be changed now.
like what people say "nasi sudah menjadi bubur".
sometimes,things that happened couldnt be changed anymore.
what we can do is,
just wait for another chance,
by that time,
we shall be the one using it wisely and appreciate it.
things are easy to say,
but when it comes to work,
it hardly gets done.
oh btw,
i actually just some inspiration on what to be written down on my paper,
but then,
i was lack of some inspiration of the introduction or the opening of the story.
yeah,
was hoping for some good inspiration to come so that i would be able to get it done before the new semester begins.
umm.
yeah,
i think this would be enough for now.
take care and good bye.
Written by MunFai
8:57:00 PM
A 2-in-1 Post I think.
yup,
basically i was just planning to say 2 things by now.
might be diverging to more topics,maybe.
right,
been for a so called reunion for the form5's.
but then,
i was wondering like,
shouldnt a reunion be like some sort of gathering and sitting around together to have some fun time together with some sort of conversations?
but,
it turned out to be like,
the guys having own fun talking with our own groups and so do the girls.
but then,
after it gone a little bit "deviated",
everyone's off to their own group with the girls off to shopping spree,
and the guys were in the arcade,
well,
not all of us played of course.
and,
finally,
when everyone got back together,
we were like wondering around whether a movie would be a wise plan,
or we just head to the mamak to wreck some havoc over there.
yes,
it turned to be in the mamak.
and yeah,
have some laughter there.
***
beep beep,
another thing would like,
**back to the same old thing**
the stuides i mean,
definitely its getting nearer.
of course i shouldnt be crying at the corner when i knew i am about to fail the exam.LOL.
but then,
its like,
i am not moving in such a way that make myself sit in front of the study desk and study for even a little while.
might have been lack of some sort of stimulator and catalyst.
my rate of study's been slow.
all time low and its almost in a constant rate.
yeah,
thats the main point.
right,
remembered something,
will be doing some operations towards some animals by tomorrow.
so,
i was hoping like,
everything goes smooth,
and nothing trouble comes to me then.
zzz.
ignore and skip that,sorry.
found it lame writing that.
***
semester ended and holiday started,
first week will be quite busy in school again,
LOLz,
need some sort of studies,thats of course,
and, some fun?perhaps.
Written by MunFai
10:10:00 PM
Another Time Of Inspiration.
right,
off to another semester break,
will be starting another sem in another two weeks time,
yet still need to be back in school for series of reports and experiments.
realized that schedule might got packed next week.
LOLz.
yeap,
understood that it was actually a friday night,
yeah,its reaching upon a saturday morning by now.
yet,
was just finished watching a show.
of course,
the course was broadcasted for quite a few times already,
but yes,
it still managed to touched everyone.
this is their way of performing,
in every single,
definitely there will be some values that we could have extract it out and try out somewhere.
it shows nothing special about it,
yet it was the nothing special part that represents every single detail and it was quite some different from other shows.
remembered that i learned from somewhere during my part time working experience after finishing my form 5,
yeah,
for everyone,
the definition of "good" and "bad" is different,
what i want to say is that,
there isnt any accurate definition to define this two words,
its just popped out from everyone to define the level of good and bad to determine whether they are "good" or "bad".
yet,
good or bad,
everytime will have their own reasons and causes,
that's always not right for us to blame just one people,
it seems unfair.
thinking another way round,
might change the colour of drawing,
change the ending of the story,
human is alive species,
and,
everyone possess their own feelings,
definitely they shall be expressing their thought,
just,
they dont know how to do it.
and,
this is the thing that causes all the trouble.
but,
it couldnt be blamed,
its natural.
just that,
whenever we are able to,
even if we were defined by people as bad or else,
we just shouldnt be to into it,
but just to do it for the good purpose.
human cannot look at every angles they want,
everyone always need some guidance,
no matter the elder or the younger,
we will always need to change.
but,
time will be everything.
when everything's happening,
there's always good and bad,
we couldnt see it with our naked eyes,
but,
i knew,
it does exist,
and,
we actually didnt realized and care about it,
because,
the time just haven arrived yet.
when the time has come,
everything,
will remain good and,
resume to its excellent condition.
Written by MunFai
12:34:00 AM
Things Been Changing Lately.
right,
knew that the blog has been left for quite some time,
was quite lazy about blogging,
got too bored of studies everyday,
thats why it makes me lazy into blogging.
i would think that it might remains the same throughout the whole year.
perhaps only a once in a bluemoon i might be back here to write something,
of course,
only when i felt about blogging.
umm,
yeah,
suppose gets into the topic already,
basically doesnt have something specific to be written actually,
just thought of blogging from yesterday night when i was lying on bed before falling asleep.
yes,
everything's been changing a little bit of course,
one is my perception towards a friend of mine,
yeah,
i have always thought that he/she is someone whos a little bit fierce and,
sometimes i wouldnt have dare to talk to him/her.
right,
i would actually say that the orientation during the last two days were actually helping everyone in our class get closer.
i was thinking that it breaks the barrier between us.
it seems to be a positive sign for us.
of course it is.
right,
peoples are coming in for their pre-U studies as a form sixers a.k.a pre-U year 1 student.
but i would still prefer to call we all as form sixers,
still sounds nicer for me.
seems a little bit odd for me to call as pre-u science year 2 student.
eeeewwww.
so,
the orientation was held for the lower sixers actually.
instead of them having funs and interaction,
it all turned out to the upper sixers enjoying everything.
yeah,
although i wasnt playing the game,
but helping in the games by spraying and splashing water is quite some fun as well.
because,
looking them in wet condition was......LOLz.
yeah yeah,
but still,
i dont get it that why some of them couldnt take it easily.
dont have to make their life too complicated i think.
sometimes,
its good to have enjoy some time with some new friends you make.
thats what i think.
yeah,
from this batch of lower sixers,
i also found some of my ex-classmates in primary and some secondary ex-schoolmates.
they looks to been the same all this while and their appearance doesnt seems to have change much all these years.
back to orientation,
i just recalled that my orientation last year wasnt as fun as this year.
this year's seems to include quite many interesting things like water,flours,balloons and such.
last year was quite a simple one.
maybe its just because they were still having exams when we came in the first day.
thats why it makes them dont have enough time to prepare some better orientation.
no blaming.
right.
seems good right,
everything's been changing.
and,
something is going to change of course.
what i was referring was about the new class that my class is about to move in by the start of new semester.
the new is done its painting and the tables and chair have just arrived.
so,
everything's been progressing well.
its just another thing that doesnt seems to be as smooth as i wanted.
well,
i knew it was all my own's faulty for being so...
afraid or scare of failure.
was going too defensively already.
thats what makes into someone being so,useless.LOLz.
in this field only i mean.
so,
i think thats what i am going to talk about this time.
soooooooo,
before the next post comes,
take care for all.bye.
Written by MunFai
4:01:00 PM
Home Alone Mission.
right,
i got myself actually something to be written again,
at least.
i was so out of topic or mood to write something here,
or either i doesnt actually have such a little bit long time to post something over here.
yes of course,
i am so used to writing all my feelings over here,
yes, and thats the way i am going to write this blog.
because,
every blogger has their own style.
recalling what actually have happened a couple of weeks ago,
i was actually feeling some quite heavy pressures and heat from everywhere.
i got all the hardships that i have never experience before,
even when i was in form5,
yes of course,
it makes me grow better and better,
in any way that it would be.
***
oh, since the new principal came,
i dont know whether is the order of the principal or from the MOE,
but,
at least,
the 6th form will be rebrand.
yes,
the names, our society's name,
uniform, our class and facilities,
all will be rebranded and renew.
although we will be only enjoying these privileges for the half of the year left,
but i think it would be a good choice.
***
i was about to be alone in my home for the next two days.
everyone is out either for work,or for vacation,
i dont have the chance as i actually have to go to school these few days as they were actually school days,
being alone at home has never been good,
just when you arrive home,
there's no one there to talk to you,
what you see will be only the four walls,
its so quiet and lonely.
i can actually feel it already today when everyone not here.
its so empty,
and i felt so boring and quiet over here.
there seems no fun here.
people would have say,
no people at home then can do whatever i want,
but,
for me,
i would have prefer to have my family members at home with me.
it feels much more like a home as there were conversations,arguements and so on.
alone in the house,
its nothing.
i can talk to no one.
i dont like being alone at home.
if i have the choice,
i seriously would choose to have my parents with me everyday,
maybe,
because,
i actually love my parents too much,
although i am not a good boy in front of them.
but,
i enjoy living with them,
having certain freedom controls me and helps me to develop myself into a better one.
thats why,
i always know,
i need my family and i love them,
all of them,my parents and my siblings,
no one would ever can replace them.
Written by MunFai
7:13:00 PM
Off To The Lagoon!!
alright,
its a day that all of us off to the lagoon in sunway,
yeah of course everyone of us were having a one week break,
so, we the cina one,
planned to the lagoon.
the day started off quite some badly with a rainy day,
yeah, everything got a bit worse,
plan was a bit delayed due to the rain,
well, of course we were stucked in the traffic jam.
but then,
we went down all the way,
and,
of course,
we started having fun there.
starting with the water park,
then only proceed with the dry park.
yeah,
i may skip all these parts,
but some better ride,
one good ride in the water park is the one off with the carpet.
quite nice experience when you are actually lying and racing with your friends.
the other fun ride was at the pirate ship,
there's two actually,
one big and another smaller bit.
the bigger one only turns 360 degree,
but then the smaller one turns 720 degree.
this was quite a fun ride,
as it was quite scary and thrilling.
one should have enjoy it quite much.
well,
the fun was always with the friends,
the fun that plat together,
scream together,
but then,
an advice is that,
never ever go in the group with odd numbers of members.
you will know why soon.
we spent almost a full day over there.
having fun.
yeah,
quite tiring for all of us,
and,
i may have to leave by now,
for a break.
take care.
Written by MunFai
7:29:00 PM
An Unreachable Hope.
3 siblings including me in the family.
yet,
quite often that only left me myself at home.
my brother quite oftenly has to go outstation for his work.
and, maybe,
after he changes his job,
he might have to leave the family for the month of one or two in the oversea.
while my sister is spending her 3 years in Borneo for her tertiary studies.
she would only come back when she's on quite a long break.
so well,
its only left me myself at home sometimes,
often felt that the home is so quiet.
i have no one for me to argue with,to talk with, to have fun with.
there's too little time for me to mix with them anymore.
its always so quiet at home.
even when my brother came home late sometimes.
i do understand their situation that they have to study or have to work,
yet,
i do still feel lonely and quiet at home without.
maybe,
i always feel that our relationship is quite good and close.
i do appreciate this.
for the past few years,
when i actually started to think a little bit more mature,
a little bit more rational,
i would always hope and wanted to have a younger brother or sister.
but then,
i would always prefer to have a younger sister.
maybe, because i am a guy,
so i wanted a younger sister.
of course,
i understand that i would actually face alot of problems and difficulties on her,
but then,
its all worth it when everything become good and the relationship become closer and closer.
although,
the burden will be heavier as i do have to take care of her if i do have one.
i dont know.
but i would like to try about.
trying myself to take care of a younger sister.
helping her and protecting her as a brother as well.
yes,
and of course,
i wouldnt be so badly lonely and boring anymore at home.
at least,
there would be someone else to cheer the mood in the house up.
the relationship between siblings is so much different compared to relationship between parents and son.
although,
i always have a good time with my mother and,
we have quite a lot of conversation as well.
but then,
the feeling of being together with the siblings will always be different.
i always wanted a younger sister,
but,
i knew,
this hope is simply unreachable.
well,
i also do understand that,
although people always tend to treat some friends really like siblings,
but then,
some of them may seems to forget everything when times pass by.
and,
they might not come and find you ever again.
i just dont feel good about it.
yes,
i actually still remember that i used to have some this kind of sisters.
but then,
its been very hard to look for them.
both of us are actually quite busy with our studies.
yes,
i do miss them quite a lot.
i would love to sit down and have some break with them.
however,
they wont be here.
Written by MunFai
2:50:00 PM
Its Getting Tougher.
right,
so everything's almost back to normal.
something just went wrong to the comp for the whole past week.
yeap,
kind of the comp was after "surgery".
LOLz.
well,
sort of putting in some needed files back into the comp.
yay.
umm,
so,
thought about everything.
everything seems to be getting tougher and harder.
yeah right,
besides,
i was also stunned by having 3 experiments in a week.
got quite busy about those 3 reports yet its quite of fun and easier as 2 of them will be done in a group. yay great.
right.
so,
there's anothing that my buddies were actually planning for a class trip to some somewhere.
only today i actually knew what they wanted.
they would always like to have the feeling that all of us would stay under one roof for several nights.
especially my monitor.
he told that he wanted those fun.
well,
that maybe seems to be a point.
because,
before that,
i was thinking of having a trip in a small group,
what i mean is that,
if its in a small group,
it would be easier for us to explore the place and have some fun over there.
yeah of course we are not going to explore places like Genting again.
LOLz.
i understand their point and i agree with them.
sometimes,its good.
well,
i was thinking of visiting Sentosa Island in Singapore.
anyone would like to come along?
*****
du du.
beep.
erm...
yeah,
back to something quite common when i am blogging.
hmm,
i dont know whats actually going on.
i got to realize that her existence in my daily life is quite an important thing.
i wanted to see her so badly everyday.
yes i do.
thats why,
i always took a glance everday at her when i was going into my class every morning just after the assembly.
yeap,
her class would have went into class much earlier than mine.
my class was used to go back last.
LOLz.
a glance at her is so good.
at least i could have look at her.
if i wouldnt,
i might have thought of her the whole day.
yeah,
yesterday was a day that my class have to be temporary in the chemistry lab,
yeah,
that means i didnt actually have the chance to past by her class and took a glance on her.
LOLz.
but then,
i didnt expected that,
everything changed when i was on my way back to class from the washroom,
i was given a chance to get a glance on her.
simply unbelievable.
i thought i wont be having the chance that day.
LOLz.
i dont whats actually going to be.
i was hoping it would be a good sign for me.
i was thinking of starting a new relationship.
well,
i will see how everything goes.
yeah,
i would like to have some response on this.
maybe some comments will be good.
thank you.
Written by MunFai
5:42:00 PM
Life Full Of Envy.
right,
so i actually did have a quite tricky day today.
have some lesson with my friends today when on the way back home from tuition.
pity him as well,
take good care brother,
we'll always help you.
right.
so,
erm,
yeah...i was supposed to say that,
such great thing happened in my class where everyday was so impress during the valentines.
the main character was so daring and the female main character was so ......... (define yourself)
yeah,so,
i dont think i would be so daring to do such thing.
even i was sometimes so desperate of being alone.
LOLz.
quite lonely to be alone.
you have no one to share your jokes with,
no one to listen to you,
no one to give you a hug when you are so desperate and down.
i needed all that,
someone to hug,
someone to listen to me,
someone to talk to me,
someone to lend me her shoulder to lean on when i am tired,
someone to wipe off my tears when it rolls down my cheeks,
someone.
i was so envy with them.
till now,
i dont really have one in mind.
yeah right,because like and love is so much different.
i like someone there,but no love,
but then,
i was so eager to see her face everyday,
if i dont,
my mind will be thinking of her whole day long.
right,
an ordinary guy.
thats need some care and love.
LOLz.
i leave.
i hope i do.
LEAVE.
Written by MunFai
10:50:00 PM
Menstruation.
right,so its been time to post something here.
was busy with all sorts of stuff in life.
well,this seems to be quite a common line to start my post huh?
LOLz,
well, so please dont be suprise about the title of the post actually,
be it with a mature 18/19 years old manner.
right.
this thing actually came into my mind when it was bio class today.
although the teacher was teaching respiration,
but then i totally have no idea again he would got into such topic.
well,
the thing he told us is that,
you guys remember the hormone things released from your armpit can actually attract another people to like you if the people smells it,some it put it on the lipstick of a lady so that the lady like him. ( i dont really know how it works, theoratically its like this.)
umm, the thing is that,
suddenly he got on to menstruation.
its quite normal to talk about it as most of us in the class was bio students,
but, what he told us was that,
actually, both man and woman also undergo menstruation.
just that,
woman's menstruation can easily be seen/notice or any words then,
but, man's menstruation actually couldnt be seen,
the only "symtomps" of it was like the men is moody,hot temper,but he wouldnt suffer from any aches i think.
well,
i dont really sure whether it is true or not.
if its true,
then why dont some people undergo same thing of this?for example people from my class.
is it that they just aint reach the level yet?
but the fact is that they are already almost 19.
so, why does it happen to be like that where some of them will got so hot temper and moody but on the other hand,
others didnt got that?
i dont know.
maybe,
i would want to know some further information about this.
its a matter of human behaviour and i have to know this in order to learn everything,
everything about human behaviour.
***
oh well,
the valentine is just around the corner,
and,
yeap,
the sixth form society is doing something again.
good.
yeah,
but then,
i would prefer myself to take part in the part of doing the things,
but preferbly not to buy all this.
i dont why i just couldnt spend so much on this kind of things.
maybe, is a influence from my parents,
they always nag me for buying the most expensive things last time until i dont when,
suddenly,
i got so careful when i am about to spend,
i would always check the price first before i think of buying it or not.
yeah, price comes first.
maybe its good but maybe its bad as well.
yeah,
besides,
i dont really want anyone to know who would my eyes look to all these days,
nobody would ever knows,
well,
it doesnt looks like i really like or fall into someone,
this few days, only a girl came into my mind,
and yay, she wasnt from my class.LOLz.
but, if i dont see her for one day, i'll be missing her.
but even if i saw her already, i didnt felt too much about it,
just got satisfy that i saw her.
i also dont know what it means.
well,
as the valentine coming soon this saturday,
i was thinking to get my mum so flowers or teddy bears for her after my tuition?
maybe.
anyway, happy valentine day to all people out there especially those who are in love already or those who is trying very hard to chase a girl out there or even you that is still single.
make yourself happy with something you like. =)
Written by MunFai
5:10:00 PM
Bring It On.
right,
i will be continueing with something here.
probably a shorter post.
yeah,
i just wanted to tell how am i feeling.
hmm,
well,
i have no idea why,
but i always felt so satisfied when i was able to post something into my blog successfully.
it doesnt seems to be something so glorious.
but i just dont why that i felt the same everytime.
i just felt like,
yay,
i have finally tell out whatever i feel and what i wanted to say,
so,
for those who got some "yuan" with me,
they will managed to read and know how i actually feel that time.
of course,
its the same theory when one finally to express their feelings through speaking.
but for me,
its through blogging i think,
yeah right,
as i always thought,
being a shy shy guy wouldnt have the confident and faith to speak it out.
yeah, thats why i rarely tell out how i feel and confess myself to the one i like.
only until she asked then only i will drag on and drag on until some day then only i will tell.
thats why i am so used to and like blogging as it helps me telling out whatever i wanted to say all the time even though that quite a number of them doesnt actually come into my blog and read what i have written.
but then,
what i could have done i have already done,
if you still doenst know,
then i have nothing to say anymore.
i am just too shy to speak out.
sorry that i always stay in my own kingdom.
even if i love you,
i dont have the confident to tell you.
i deserve for the ending i got.
sorry.
Written by MunFai
1:02:00 AM
Partially CNY post.
right.
happy chinese new year.
yeah,its still not late yet as everyone knew that chinese new year have 15 days right?
well, although quite many of us only celebrate for the 1st two days.
yeap.
its been yearly routine as the first day we will gather around and have some meal together with the relatives.
2nd day, for some family,
they would started visiting relatives already,
but my family isnt got too many place to go,
so, they planned for a movie every 2nd day of chinese new year,
every year must be one.LOLz.
of course,
it came up with the movie called All Well's End's Well.
right,
on the other hand, my class's house visiting wont be too early,
it only will be going on on friday and saturday.
thats why i still have time blogging around here.
yeah, because my kampung is in KL,
my father was born in KL.
***
hmm,
oh well,
have a friend that is going oversea tomorrow,
lucky for them to go oversea during CNY,
but then,
her flight was quite early, its around 6 in the morning.
pity her that she have to wait there for few hours without doing anything.
yeah right,
as you know,
you have be there 2 hours before for international flight.
thats why.
i remembered that time when i was about to go to china.
my flight was at 12.05am.
its quite late and i left my home to the airport at 8.20pm,
i remembered it very well.
but then,
all the way there,
its so boring until you have to wait and wait and wait.
really,you have nothing to do there.
i was lucky enough that i have a friend that time that she willing to spend her time to chat with me so that i am not lonely and boring enough.
yeah,
she even chat with me until i checked in my luggage and even just before i got into the plane.
i remembered the moment so clearly that i couldnt forget.
she actually sacrifice her time.
i am so sorry to her.
i know, although since then,after i came back,
we didnt have much time to chat together and so on,
but then,
i still appreciate and like the moment so much,
even that moment isnt true to me,maybe,
i still wondering if she simply saying or what,
but well,
i dont mind all these things as it actually brought my smile back even for just 1 or 2 weeks.
its still enough for me.
i was so happy during the journey although she wasnt around with me,
not that she is far away then i am happy,
but, just i am happy that she's there to chat with me even for one moment that time,
yeah,
honestly,
i have been listening to the same one song everyday before i went into my dream every night,
and even on every journey on the bus.
i never knew it didnt last long.
but,its okay i think.
i actually bought up quite some things for her.
but then,
there's still one in my cupboard,
and i was wondering whether to give or not.
its just not the right time anymore to give it out.
for now,
i even felt so awkward to talk to her even if i faced her.
i dont know what to talk to her and what to say.
yeah, even motions also i rarely show it out.
i am suppose to leave already,
the weeks of happiness has been ended.
yeah, pawned.
its doesnt seems so hurt to me now anymore.
it doenst.
i know i have to keep living.
but,
i realized,
do i really have dream.
a real real dream that i could forgo all these relationships and just go away.
i hope i could.
Written by MunFai
12:41:00 AM
PrePre CNY Post.
yeap,
its 2 days before CNY,
and still have to go out for tuition classes early morning.
right, i do still have some friends going with me actually.
everywhere is getting more and more packed.
and, peoples are everywhere.
with all the CNY stuffs up for last minutes grab.
everyone's here with inch think of wallet and purse.
well, so,
been to MV with bunch of friends because one of them said that he wanted to buy CNY clothes.
right,we headed there.
its very crowded. everyone's hand definitely will have at least one plastic bag,yeah,
except me, i went home empty handed.
btw, the sales were everywhere,
i was actually thinking of buying some accessories,
but then, it turned out nothing.
a simple hat cost more than 30. some even cost up to rm90.
even there's a sale out there,
its still quite expensive even its after discount,
yeah, my friend bought a shirt that its original price is rm129,
after discount was like 60++. LOLz,wallet will be bleeding and about to go into ICU soon.
right,
walking around,
i sort of looking other thing besides hat,
like wallet,yeah, the one i got is on the way of being spoiled already,
and, i was actually wondering,
where can i actually get a pair of leather gloves.
hmm, after that, i was asking my friend whether which bracelet is better,
one with fire or one with dragon.
oh?i actually got number of things related to dragon.roar.
yeah, because the bracelet i bought in genting also quite fragile ady,
cant wear it too often.
LOLz, will have fast for few months if i was about to buy all these things,
its so expensive already.
the bunch of groups that actually wanted to help my friend buy shirt ended up with me and him left,
others all left quite early.
yeah, spending hours there,
he finally managed to buy something back,
if not i might just got very frustrated if he bought nothing.
right.
he got the best timing to go home.
peoples are going home only he about to go home.
LOLz.
of course then,
the busses were all full,
and, its raining.
LOLz.
just now i have something to blog about.
but,
i wonder why i always have short term memory lost.
maybe,
later i will repost it.
Written by MunFai
9:14:00 PM
Is It What They Want?
right,
have been listening to some musics these few days,
and,
umm,
yeah,
actually for the entire whole album,
out of 10 songs,
only few of them are nice to be hear.
i wonder is it that they only put a few thats nice to be hear,
and others just put some kinds that are just moderate enough then they put it up for sale?
maybe,
think properly,
if they are about to put all nice songs in the same album,
then when the next album arrive,
all those would be those moderate songs which people wont be really like it,
then the sale of the next album wouldnt be great already right?
consequently,
they will suffer loss right?
yeah right.
maybe because this i think.
***
right,
i sort of noticed a friend of mine getting unhappy quite most of the times,
well,
it seems that she actually dont really like listening to all those of advices,
yeah,
i know, she wouldnt really listen to what i said,
LOLz,
well,
since i dont have too much chance advicing her and make her feel more comfortable and better,
yeah,
i still have to do my job here,
its good that if she's reading here,
but if she dont,
its okay,
i would just have to do whatever i can if people do not really wants to listen.
right,
so,should be beginning by now.
well, definitely people will always having different kinds of problems and difficulties,
yea i understood that i also having the same obstacles sometimes.
but then, everything will be fine if ya have a solution for it.
right,
she seems unhappy and quite hard to persuade,
for me is that,
maybe,
sometimes, try to listen to people about what they really think about it,
their oppinion would always be very useful as they are an outsider,
they can see everything clearly from the other point of view,
a friend,would really give some constructive ideas to you whenever you needed,
well,
its good that you find a friend to chat with,
one that allow to express whatever you feel,
one that you feel comfortable with,
one that you have no worries that he/she that will be going to do something else,but just be a good listener and listen to your worries.
right,have a good talk with them,
its will help.
dont always keep it deep inside the heart,
it will recover,
but then,
its takes a really really long time.
i know you have a friend that you can share everything about,
go ahead and do it.
not every people is so lucky like you that they really have a friend to talk to,
some they dont even will lend you a helping hand,
or a pair of ears to listen to you,
or a shoulders to let to lie against,
appreciate them while they still here.
i am glad that although i dont really have this kinds of friends,
but, at least i am able to get myself through all the time through all sorts of inspiration even it is in the form of scoldings and naggings,
it really drag us out and help.
well,
i am not a good guy as you all thougt,
but,
no matter what,
anytime anywhere,
i will be there,
listen to you,
talk to you,
lending you my ears,even my shoulder,
just to make you more comfort and feel better.
Written by MunFai
12:06:00 PM
Heartsicked.
well,
its normal that most of the peoples now are commenting or blogging on everything abour those Gaza wars.
yeah right, those wars are cruel, i dont deny it,
but then,
i am here not to blog about this, got so bored of this kinds of things.
nah.
right,
i have something else in my mind actually by now.
remember that i visited china last november?
right,
i was following a tour that time,
and so,
definitely there would be a tour guide right.
yeap,
just recently,
i msn-ed him and chatted with him,
once i raised a question to him whether has he been to m'sia and what he actually thought about m'sia.
when i heard the answer,
was abit heartsicked that time,
he told me that m'sia dont have much historical places and not much things to play.
yeah right,
honestly,
i was bit unhappy that time,
i dont know why.and i dont have the answer for that.
but then,
think it deeply,
m'sia actually dont really have too much place to visit,
is either visiting beaches or else are tropical rainforest,
i know is much to be explore,
but then,
the things are just limited,
besides,
the historical places also do not have much things to visit,
and the stories werent too long time ago.
wasnt so inspired on that as they dont really impressed me.
understood that every places have their goods and bads,
but then,
i would more prefer to explore somewhere else with more things to play.
well, of course, it only applies when every other factors are excluded.
right.
i still miss china quite alot.
i was impressed by alot of histories there,
especially the Nanjing YangTze River Bridge,aka the ChangJiang 1st large bridge.
oh i remembered that there was a live show in HangZhou,
where the show was directed by Zhang YiMou.
its performed on the West Lake of HangZhou,
where the stage is in the water.
the show was very impressive,
especially with the use of lightings,
oh by the way,
the show doesnt have any dialogues in it.
try watch it.its nice.
in mandarin the show was called 印象西湖.
***
right,
thing no.2 that i wanted to express about.
no offend to anyone.
umm,
yeah,
as you all know,
bachelor,
is a single man right?
yeah right,
and he have all the freedoms he want,
he will be able to do whatever he wants anytime anywhere.
but there,
a note for those who got themselves involved in BGR,
forget about the bachelor's right,
especially your girlfriend is like a lion kah tiger kah dinosaur kah Trexx kah.
then,
it would be all NO for you.
that time you would have to give up and sacrifice everything you have.
being controlled 24 hours without freedoms,
right,
if ya well lucky enough,
you will be given all the HONOURS to do all the things and take all the things.
remember, be a gentlemen,
forget about the men-and-women's equality.
it wouldnt work here.
so, just throw away this concept if your having all sorts of this kind of girlfriends,
well,
good luck of getting some nice hearing or sweet scoldings.
if the sounds is sweet,then it would be better right?
haha,quite hard to find one, but i think everyone would say the MTM may be one.
no, i only meant for the sound sweet.
well,
its all depends on you on how you communicate with her,
but then,
you may have to tolerate much if she is so much fierce and stubborn than you.
LOLz.
i wonder why......this and that.
haha.
well, its just up to you guys,
i think i am free from all these,
not suffering from any pain by now,
weeeee....
hehehe,
and, good luck to those out there having Trexx as their girlfriends.
ciaoz.
Written by MunFai
11:19:00 PM
We Need To Meet.
right,
i am not finished yet,
umm,
well,
its been quite some time that i didnt met with my junior friends,
umm,
yeah, my juniors when i was in s3.
have been close with some of them previously,
but,
as i got out of form5,
its quite rare that we meet,
the last time i chatted with a friend, K was last year.
it seems both of us arent free to find a time to have a cup of tea of talk about nonsense.
i enjoy talking and listening to her.
yup, some constructive ideas from her most of the time,
and well,
its quite relax talking to her.
i wouldn have any worries when talking to her.
i actually have my trust on her.
right, there quite lot more,
like V and C,
umm, although i didnt spend so much time talking to them,
but at least,
we may enjoy having some conversations together.
yeap,
i think that we should find a time during cny to come out for a cup of tea.
yeah well,
i actually understood that all of them have got into form5 this year.
and,
they just have to study as well.
at least,
much better than me,
i am still here blogging again and again.
well,
i need to do so,
as,
i actually dont know who could express all my feeling to,
and,
blogging it out may be one of my ways of getting rid all these,
whoever reads it doesnt bother me anymore,
maybe,
sometimes, i would want to know whos actually reading and understanding how am i feeling.
umm, i have no idea on what to continue by now.
until the arrival of next post,
take care and see ya.
Written by MunFai
6:24:00 PM
OUTBURST!!!
right,
i dont know why it happens again.
emo been up and down for the past few days,
but,
i believe,
and i knew i can do it,
i am getting out of this.
i am sensing something different.
well,
been quite lazy during school days,
test and studies,
i got so boring sometimes,
no matter at school or at home,
its like sort of no entertaiment for me other than tv.
LOLz.
except,
went out with friends for a game or two.
just to stretch out my bones,
so that it keeps in shape.
LOLz.
well,
on the other hand,
i am sensing the impossiblity of getting something.
right,
thats why i am saying i have to get out of this thing and get back to my old self,
at least,
i would be happy but not always waiting for something to happen.
maybe,
the character that time wouldnt be as good as this,
but,
at least,
i would give myself a better life.
LOLz.
right,
been heard of some robbery cases happening around,
and today's class was sort of discussing this matter.
was actually about the crimes caused from foreigners then,
but it came up me asking my friends who were the witness for some crimes there.
well,
it all happened on the buses,
nothing much to say,
just that, the people nowadays are getting worse,
just to plead everyone that,
please be careful whenever you are on a bus,
especially for girls.
have a friend to accompany whenever you are going anywhere.
***
right,
umm, i know she aint reading this anymore,
LOLz,
i am not sure,
just guessing,
well,
she doesnt cares actually,
nah,
i shall be talking something else,
should be trying on something better to say.
philosophy?haha.
Written by MunFai
6:13:00 PM
Unexpected Guest.
right,
i think i have told everyone of you that,
we went for a game today.
yeah right.
but,
i dont know why.
some unexpected guest came to me.
maybe,
i just didnt went for exercise for quite some time already.
yeah, then all my muscle (tissues) and backbones started to have some aches with me.
i didnt expect it to be a few aches at the same time.
LOLz.
hands and legs,
till the bone that support my body.
its all pain.
it may takes me some time to recover.
hope can make it before the road run school level.
but,
i wonder whether i can make it or not.
i am sensing some illness may comes to me in few days or few weeks time.
yeah,
i know,
whenever i fall sick,
my asthma will be trigger.
and,
its quite difficult for me to run already.
only when i am healthy,
i dont have this difficulties.
right,
need some rest by now.
take care.
yup, me too.
Written by MunFai
11:45:00 PM
The Tribe Has Spoken.
right,
the sch lesson has started few days ago and,
yeah,
those cocuriccular activities are about to begin soon as some of the meetings were held already at this morning.
yeah,
actually,
its quite hard for a new student or as an outsider to come in the school and grab some of the top post.
the reason is because,
your actually not famous enough at the school yet and.
you dont have enough supports from the lower forms,
except,
you have an exceptional handsome appearance.
then you would get a numbers of votes from them.
right.
thats another thing i actually wanted to post about 1 or 2 days ago.
but due to my limit of using a computer,
i can rarely use a computer nowadays.
so, hmmm, yeah,
i am actually at a friend's house waiting to go for a game after this.
so, here to blog around.
well,
what i wanted to say is that,
ever since i got into form 6,
everything changed so differently.
what i mean is that,
the way how we all mix together,
i enjoy the time when i was in form 5,
because, during that time,
everyone of us can mix around happily without worries.
each of everyone of us tend to walk around the class and make noise or have fun in the class.
the way they are is just nice and friendly.
so warm you feel.
everything is just memory,
the time being together,
is so indescribable.
well, there is so much different compared to the situation now,
i am not here to offend anyone. very sorry for that.
but this is just how i look onto the way people mix around.
umm, i have to be extra careful in writing this post.
hope not to annoy or offend anyone.
right.
actually,
what i always feel from the class is that,
the peoples are like separated into groups and tribes.
they just go according to their gangs and somehow,
they still remain with their own gangs of friends afterall.
LOLz.
i am not saying that this is a bad thing,
just that,
i was actually hoping a more harmonious way of us enjoying the time together.
is like if we are able to be like one family,
why not go ahead with this?
why are we always stay with the same 2 or 3 friends?
well,
i am still a bit glad that we,
i mean the four of us from s3,
are able to mix around with the 8 mile students.
yeah, we have been spending times together, having fun,
lepaking and went for quite a number of games together as well.
i was thinking how good if all of us can do that together,
lets just not the s3 and 8 miles gangs,
lets make it somehow a bit more people for us.
right,
dont you think if ya the only guy alone there not joining us for the fun?
its quite saddening for me if i am the one.
well,
i experienced that before, and i felt so desperate that time when i am unable to join them.
LOLz.
well, at least i can still make it with my gangs this time.
but if you that is the only guy there,
but ya dont have the chance of joining us here and have some guys joke and fun,
its so....so.....
well,
i dont actually know how you all think,
maybe, you feel better joining other genders,
well, nevermind,
but if ya felt that our attitude so much different from yours,
then i would that it is wrong.
the way we are doesnt really shows the real attitude of us.
each and everyone of us have their own personality,
why we be like this sometimes is just to suit ourselves into the group.
why do you all want to think that our attitude is so rude or arrogant?
i really dont understand that.
plus, i just wanted to say that,
we only have 1 chance living here with everyone of us,
so,
why dont just we be ourselves and be happy?
instead of everyday acting like so sopan and trying to get people's attention?
no,i totally diagree with that,
its so important that we have to be ourselves and be happy,
as i said,
live your life to the fullest,
make your life in your way without people controlling you.
manipulate it yourself.bingo!
right,
i was just expressing that,
we all should be mixing together to enjoy the fun of last year of school year,
sometimes, join your gangs,
but another time,
make it all of us together.
i really dont hope to see that every groups stay in every corner but not joining the fun together.
well,
i think this may be what i wanted to say for now.
again,
i would like to say that,
this post is not written to annoy or offend anyone.
if it does,
i apologize here.
well, besides,
i dont know whether is she reading this,
if yes,
please dont angry with me,
i was just writing what i always felt.
i dont meant to offend anyone especially you.
very sorry for that.
umm, yeah, i think by the next post arriving to this post,
take care for now. bye bye.
Written by MunFai
1:24:00 PM
Fate Isnt There.
right,
have been going school since yesterday for the last year,
yes, i am sure that is last year of secondary school life.
and,
well, of course,
i need do something else this year with a bit more efforts to be done.
so that?
i do not have to say sorry to myself.
i feel sorry now to myself.
but, you give me one last chance, thank you.
umm, everything didnt change too much as we were like just from year 1 students going into year 2.
so, most of the arrangements do not have much changes.
yeah right,
its been feeling quite far apart from her already,
i dont have the chance of getting near to her or talk to her anymore,
my own problems, is,
too much.
and, i have got so much things to do on my studies.
i am not so smart like hw and ck,
but i knew,
i can go much further if i do it this time,
even i have to sacrifice everything,
yes i mean everything,
i am losing all my games, leisure times, chatting around, slacking around.
not for me anytime.
was banned for that.
aka grounded.
well, i dont mind about that.
as long as i did it at the last 2 month of this year,
my parants would have nothing to complain about me anymore.
i need to prove it already.
yeap.
i couldnt let go of it anymore.
i may have to sacrifice some of my cocurricular activities so that i am able to attend some of my tuition classes.
i need to spend alot things here.
yeap.
although my freedom may be controlled,
but sometimes, just one or two,
i still need to be have outings with my friends to keep our friendship strong right?
maybe i even need to celebrate my birthday on my books as well this time.
LOLz.
***
right, i got one song lyric over for her,
雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默 悔得很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起叫 梦 分开了叫 痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后 果 我能承受
这最后的出口 在爱过了才有
能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪 让它留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点
雨淋湿了天空 毁得很讲究
你说你不懂我为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默 悔得很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起叫 梦 分开了叫 痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果 我能承受
这最后的出口 在爱过了才有
能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪 让它留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点
你说我不该 不该
不该在这个时候 说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
请告诉我 暂停算不算放弃
我只有那一天的回忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
静静的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里 你不用害怕失眠
如果你想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪 让他留在雨天
越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点
你说我不该 不该
不该在这个时候说了爱你
要怎么证明我没力气
告诉我暂停算不算放弃
我说我不该 不该在这时候才说爱你
要怎么证明我没有力气
我只有那一天的回忆
well, i was wondering as well,
why are all these things happening like this?
so coincidently?
i still wonder,
if it was my fault for everything,
i dont want to be far apart from her,
i just want to stay close with her even if i wasnt given a chance,
at least just another smile that i could get so that it cheers up my heart,
but i was thinking so far away,
i wasnt that good as she wanted,
i wasnt that nice as she wanted,
i am just someone which is quite odd,
odd in the way i behave myself,
she controls me,
i dont mind,
but, if it does, i am losing myself.
right,
i know if she reading this,
she will be more unhappy about this,
but i have to take my risk,
yeap, i promise you i will change,
change but remains some personality in me,
well,
anyway, i dont see my significance around you as well,
i just have to stand from far,
looking at you,
thats all i can do.
i dont know is it right for me for telling you all this,
including my feelings,
it drags me far apart from you.
it really pisses me off everyday,
where i have to fight with my feelings and some tonnes of studies to be done.
right.
i felt like want to know everything about you.
i felt like listening to your voice whenever i need you.
i felt like chatting with you every night,
but, fate never comes,
definitely it comes with different kind of factors,
you dont feel it, but i felt it very very much.
sorry.
i have so many things to tell you,
to ask you,
to know from you.
but, i was never allowed.
i am far,
so far away,
another year of hardship to go through,
maybe,
i will be better if you dont ask me that question that time,
yeah, i was avoiding to answer your question that time,
because i know,
once i answered,
i will cause many troubles to myself,
i know.
i really know.
now its the time.
i shouldnt have answered it,
but i need to let you know.
oh, well, umm,
the fate just aint with me.
right.
good luck for you.
sigh.
***
oh, btw, CNY is around the corner,
i was planning making to make some visitings with friends,
well, of course, one with my form5 friends, and another with my current classmates.
if anyone isnt free at any days, please notify for easier arrangement and planning.
thank you.
Written by MunFai
3:47:00 PM
