so well,its been weeks that i did not write anything juz becoz of my spm.somehow,having 1 more chinse paper left,i am almost going to set mysf free.however,since the paper is only about to start by next week,i have already resting up mysf.
okay,for some ppl that asked us again and again to go home and study for chinese,well,to this very good person,hmm,is like small little betrayer that study for it since long time but lastly did not sign himsf up for the exam.hahaz.no offencing.
starting to relax up mysf,but somehow feeling like so lost and dont even know what is going to happen,and what am i going to do.yaya of coz ppl would find a part-time job,well nvm for that.juz like its holiday but nothing to do besides finding jobs.i am like aimless for now juz becoz i dont have to study for exams for a couple of months,so every night i was like sitting but doing nothing.the books for exam was like my partners years ago.and now,i left them and sat alone.
while friends are hanging out most of the times,and i was like called out by them once or twice only in the ten times when they were hanging out.well,maybe was like i m juz too close or can be very sociable,coz everyone knows,i m like the kinda different type from them,not physically juz my character,it was like cant mix with them,like what ppl always say "water cant mix with fire".
so,everything juz going so quiet everyday and i wasnt like have any intention yet to find a job.juz feeling of working when january begins.well,blogging is juz something when someone wanted to express their feelings,not to offence anyone,sory guys juz if i did anything wrong.sometimes being left out wasnt nice,i think yx might knows the feeling right?hahaz.but somehow,ppl wont be showing off and sounds out whatever they wasnt hapy about,juz like yx,he juz did it.
yes,maybe i should think in another way,thats what ppl always trying to say while others were like trying to find an excuse to convince us,it seems good but finally when one get back to their home,evrything was like back to "normal".
different ppl have different ways to express their unhapiness,drawing was so good to express it but too bad i m not a good artist.the feeling wont be ending,and i was need something to get rid of it.some ppl would know and understand this feelings and some were able to make me feel better,but too bad i know that ppl wasnt have the time to take a look in here.well,nvm,its juz a matter of relationship and time.
