emptiness of heart storming through,feeling down and getting more down instead.depression dashing out of everything.was my daily schedule that was juz working and working,juz that sometime when it was a public holiday or else like weekends,customers were really like storming into the shop and asking sorts of questions...answering them werent a problem,juz that its was another matter...
as times passing like bullet trains,friends that were free will take their chance to head towards the shopping complex and have some "lepak-ing" either with friends or family,well,that wasnt what am i going to mention about,the thing is that,when friends were around and looking for you,you were juz too busy doing something else sort of entertaining the customers or else,then you wouldnt have heard that they had called you for thousand fo times.
like ignoring huh?but then,not trully that you wanted to do that,juz that a customer was there and you didnt heard.maybe it is your fault but maybe its not too.blame ownself?maybe,becoz you are the one that didnt heard of their callings,my bad.
okay,so that was what that happened ytdy for me,juz now i online only i knw.and that was my so called sister.oh gosh,i wouldnt wanted to do that to my friends,what else to say if she was like a sister to me???definitely not.
but then,the fact is that,it has happened and i juz cant denied what i have done.so well,juz have say that,i am really really sorry,i didnt meant to do that to anyone of you.sorry.
so that,angry me not,its all depends on everyone of you,beyond my life,i juz have to continue my life eventhough i have lose a close friend.sorry.but of course,i wouldnt want to lose a friend.
everyone might deserve a second chance,a murderer can be a good man too after coming out from prison,then why someone else wouldnt deserve a second chance?live to the fullest and forgive everything that happens.
for some that i was quite unhappy and angry with,i would juz forget all those,should have started a brand new lifw with something greater as its another phase of life as my olders always told me this.
well well well,another matter that,feel free to have a chat,i am bad or good,its all personal thinking,i wont stop anyone of you.and,i only could say that,i would try my best to change myself bad characters.but then,i do changed right?compared to my character last time,correct isnt it?no idea...
