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okay,
finally, i need to get myself done with what really i want to do.
and yea, the last 365 days for me to throw out everything i know when the time comes.
hehehe.
yea,
things to be undo as well,
quite a lot,yes,
the most important one,
which i think is quite influencing to me.

yea, i am talking to you,
i seriously tell you,
you can influence me alot alot,
but, its time to hold for now.
exactly!!

well, i was thinking of some nice words to describe it,
but, no matter how i think,
its still come with this word----Reborn.
yea, quoted from one of the album of nicholas.

erm, since showing what i have got on sunday night,
i have been flooded with emo the whole yesterday.
today, morning itself, i got brain-washed again by my parent.
zzz. good for me to hear,
seems like nagging, but it really makes me think alot about my next days.

i have been through different kind of things,
up and down,
time to get out of this.
i have been looking far last time,
i dont remember that i changed for being so childish recently.
sorry to myself.

i need to stay with current form.
and, i actually really hope from my heart,
that, although i got banned from so many things,
at least, please give me some more naggings or,
brain-wash me once a week maybe?

i may be going crazy,
but i know where am i going.
they remember what they promise,
just that, i have to at least score whatever i need to make that dream come true.
yes,
the field i wanted actually doesnt works in m'sia,
nevermind,
australia will be a better place.
definitely.
if not,
as said by a primary school friend that day,
we go HK together.
perhaps there will be a good place to be.

oh btw,
i am so sorry that i am always be that "small hearted",
but what i knew is just that i really can think alot alot,
even something that i never expected or will never happen.
i admit something wrong with me.
oh besides,
i really to thank you.
yes,
because,
umm...you make me change even if you didnt reply most of my msg.
that may be good to me.
at least,
you replied sometimes,
i am quite happy already.
yea,
because, when i am unhappy and lonely,
you are there to chat with me although,
the topics you said arent suitable for me.
zzz.hahaz.thank you.
keep in touch okay.
i will keep my feeling to you.

well, i also knew,
the way i be myself,
is so much different from last time.
yea,
used to be one that always plan for himself,
thats what my parents always say about me,
too good when preparing plan for ownself,
the problem is just when he dont know adjust himself to suit people's.
yea,
i need to learn from that.

oh btw, i finally understand what i did yesterday.
umm,yea, this is what i actually drew yesterday when i was so bored of studying.
it may looks like a kids drawing,
i dont deny that,
but,
i found out so many things beneath my character from this drawing.
some people may be able to understand,
and that would be good,
if you dont,
ignore it,
or just treat it as a kids drawing,
i dont mind,
at least, i am still young. =P

but, its has shown myself from this drawing,
if i am about to draw another thing today,
most probably to be the view in hangzhou or perth,
or may be the view of the sunrise.
think how it means.

i am happy of stepping out of this life,
i dont know whether i could do it or not,
but,
this time i have to gamble whatever i own.

一命二运三风水,
quite common words among the chinese,
yeap,
this time,
its in my hand,
my life,
in my palm.
i remember something i said to myself when i was in lower secondary,
i control the game,but not others,
i am the GM,no one else can be.
oh, this only applies to my life only.
no offence to any other people.
XD

i was thinking of another line yesterday,
也许时间是一种解药，也是我现在正服下的毒药...
(quoted from another song in jay's album)
LOLz.
this may actually can be put into myself,
oh, maybe because both of these things apply to me?
maybe.
this line was quite useful for me.

i thought of so many things,
thought of where i stand and where i am going,
what i do and what i failed,
what i think and what i said,
what i laugh about and what i cried about.
yea, nevertheless, i do think of you very much.
LOLz.
how packed my brain it is,
although i doesnt store my brain with tonnes of facts,
but,
i generate some other knowledge from wherever i failed.

yea,
ONLY failure makes me learn.
this is the very right time.
i got this downfall at the best time.
all the downfall at once.

but i knew,
i have got things to do,
not even to study well for my exam and enter U,
but to prepare myself to get into the society and community,
besides,
i think i need to think something,
yea, can anyone please give me some suggestion?
i wanted know that what actually products that can be sell popularly in the near future.
what do people always wanted to have.
i need to get this done before i got out of university.
seriously.

i can try whatever i want,
but, i just need the concept by now,
at least i have some time to make some proposals in few years time,
and present it while i am in my year 2 or 3 so that i could have gain some sponsors at that time.

time to change.
gosh,
i never knew that i have got so many things yet to be done.
pheww...
i am at least glad,
i am starting to put it down,
and,
i am off to a new life maybe.

try my best. X)

Written by MunFai
10:35:00 AM