oh my,i dont know what is wrong with me and what is going not right on me.
its been some day i dont want it to be.
why whatever i say just doesnt seems right?
i was just trying to help?
in return,i got something else.
something i doesnt really want.
well, its 12.57 am in the morning, almost 1am.
yeah, i have just finished chatted with a friend.
a friend that dont really like my character i think.
yeah,she must be sleeping right now,so i am here to say something,to her.
so sorry first of all.
i dont know what i have done or what i have said.
but, yeah, i was just thinking of helping,but finally,
i went wrong, even you have some problems,
but, i made it worse.
i am very sorry.
i felt that, maybe, just maybe, i dont know, you are angry of me.
sorry again.
i wanted to know,
because i wanted to change,
dont simply fine on me or bye on me.
it would be hurtful for this small little heart.
very sorry.
i just wanted to say,
if you are not telling me what i did,
i will never knew,i will never know and dont know what to change.
i am serious,
not joking at all,
you may feel i was joking and "ejek" all the time,
but i knew,i wasnt.
this is a bit tougher for me,
i know,
i am not who who who that is so so nice guy.
i will never be one as well,
so, its understood that you dont expect anything,any from me.
whatever i say,just let it go.
sorry.
well,in the mean time,
i would like to apologize,
i am sad that i made you angry,or unhappy,or sad,
and it bothers me alot.
i am so sorry.
i want to make everything better.
but for now,i knew that i have learn something new already.
and i also know,you will be the one teaching me new lesson.
yes,from what you have said,
i noticed,its very obvious,
that you are not like any other girl.
not that you are noisy,but the way you are, its so different.
the way you be,the way you say,its way much different.
thank you for meeting you again.
i know i am going to learn from you.
not anyone else.
i dont ask for too many things,
just that,i hope,hope only,
that you wont be too harsh on me.thank you.
dont fine me anymore,i have a phobia on that.
dont simply bye me anymore,because i am afraid that i may lost a friend like you.
i am sorry also that i didnt treat you nice and good.
but i will try to.
well, i dont know what else i could say,
i am afraid that if i say anything more,
the situation will get even worse,
thats what i do not hope to see at all.
i dont know how to make you believe me,believe me that i am here with a bit of sincerity.
but no matter what, i will just try my very best.
its time for me,to learn.
and please,dont ever leave me.
