right,
its been a few days since my last post.
i also think that i should be writing something over here again.
right,exactly.
i have been reading few blogs of my friends on writing their resolution.
yea, for them, they make it resolution,
me?
i was still wondering am i going to write such kind of post,
maybe yea,in this post as well.
but then,
shall i really call it as my resolution?
i live in a simple way,
a way with constant and same daily routine.
maybe sometimes with some outings with my friends.
but, i doubt this will happen much as my very crucial year is here.
once fail, all off.
my friends got so many things to be done in this year.
but the things i always thought is that,
the thing in my mind that i have to be done, aka resolution is a flat 4.0.
yea,worst also 3.67 flat.
right, still many things to be done.
of course i have something else to be done,
but, i never thought of the importance about it,
as these things never seems to provide me with any hopes.
i am sick of getting hopes, but in the end,
it turned out nothing.
well, not listing like what my friends did,
maybe with a few lines elaboration if i could.
yes, the first thing,
a girlfriend for me?
isnt that hard to find one?
for me,its seems yes.
even if you have one, but its not easy to get what you want.
LOLz.of course.
right. sometimes, i do enjoy myself to be alone,
but, wouldnt you feel that you just need a bit of care and a hug whenever you are in depression?
one that would cheer you up and brings you smile and laughter.
i think i need it.much.
found her, but, she's someone special also, quite different from the others i know,
she got different personality,
which i like it very much,
something that she doesnt know she have,
but, i noticed.
well, i have no idea on what she thinking.
hmm, i just hope that she wouldnt treat like what she treat to others, just a little more of care,
thats enough for me to smile.
well, i never knew that would she ever care, but i knew that i care her too much until it has become my weakness.
the hopes faded after all.
i stood lonely in the corner of everywhere,
looking her from far, make sure that she's safe until she's home.
i... just need a little bit of smile, and i will make it through.
right, next, of course,
to fulfil my collection series,
a ps3!!!
i am not those kind of pro gamers,
but just one that spend his own time playing some games he likes.
eg?
God Of War ps3 version,should be quite nice.my all time favourites.
have been playing its 1 and 2 in ps2.
next would be the need for speed series,
why i said so even ps2 have this game?
yea, even ps2 has came out with need for speed undercover,
yet the graphic isnt that nice compared to that of pc version,
so i think a ps3 would give me a better graphics?
erm, going on next, something what most guys want it.
his dream car?yea, i want it, but it doesnt mean i am going to get it by this year.
my friends like different cars compared to me, mostly they were liking something like Murcielargo LP640, Skyline GTR, Lancer Evo?
well, different people different interest,
my all time favourite? would be a car with a rotary TT engine, a RX7.
right, a low car with 2 doors.
yea, i prefer this 2 door car as i could drive my girlfriend around with it and speed around
but, a fairlady sometimes also seems not bad to me. 2 doors car with soft top?
so that i can open the top when driving.how good the experience would be.
umm, an exotic car also came through my mind,
but its too expensive, even the road tax already kills people.
yea, a SLR Mclaren Mercedez. i found the car pretty cool with the design.
plus some noise from the engine,
too good.
well, for now,at least a car for me to drive wherever i want.
oh before i forget,
an own computer, haven think of a laptop or a desktop.
but i think i need one.
i dont really like sharing pc anymore,
especially when they are using so much until i couldnt have a chance to chat with my friends.
yea, the mass convo was nice.
but, its too seldom.
it only happens when some event is going to be held.
right, maybe something to be change in myself.
socializing skills, i dont have much.
i was born in such strict family that i rarely talk at home,
until it makes me like not socializing skills, and dont know how to talk so that people will be happy listening to me.
yes, right one.
confess myself as well?
well, i did.LOLz.
hmm, should have prove myself in different ways.
one, my abilities, and capabilities,
i want my existence to be noticed.
i want my efforts to be appreciated.
i just need this.
i work so hard for it, even you say you saw it,
but there's no action that shows that you saw it.
and it seems you doesnt care when you do nothing about it.
it makes people feel so unappreciated and unnoticed.
second, prove myself to her that i am not that kind of person you thought.
no one have ever understand the feeling i have every single moment.
in your eyes, i maybe look normal,
yet, there is so many things i am different from my friends.
you will never noticed whats beneath my heart.
always, you will see myself playing around with them and you thought i am like them,
well, a book's cover shouldnt be your criteria of judgement.
i just have to twist a bit of myself to suit into my friends.
in other time,
totally different. because i am not like them,
although i enjoy the time being with them,
but,
i have my own way of living.
i have my own personality.
i have my own attitude.
dont put me into such way please.
thank you.
oh, something,
remember the proposal?
yea, i still need that thing,
because, i think it would be good if i start this things when i am in tertiary education.
i am looking for this.
***
right,
i haven thought of other things by now.
well, this post doesnt seems like a resolution post.
its almost like feeling expression post,
because quite a numbers of lines i actually wrote to her.
what not, its still some small wishes from me.
something that i have thought of, but not resolution yet.
i promise, to my parents,
that the most important i need to do,
a flat four for you.
i promise to you, you that always scold me this and that,
that i would prove the things you want,
the way you want me to treat you,
and anything you ask i the future.
***
i can be sorry to my friends,
i can be sorry to my siblings,
i can be sorry to you, wait, no i couldnt,
i can be sorry to my family,
but i cannot be sorry to myself.
i should be making my life better with you.together.
p/s: umm, i was thinking of the post's topic whole night, but i came out with no ideas, and at last, i decided that i just simply put a topic name for it.well, this name i got it from the singapore sitcome named phua chu kang. do find whats are that. XD
