right.
happy chinese new year.
yeah,its still not late yet as everyone knew that chinese new year have 15 days right?
well, although quite many of us only celebrate for the 1st two days.
yeap.
its been yearly routine as the first day we will gather around and have some meal together with the relatives.
2nd day, for some family,
they would started visiting relatives already,
but my family isnt got too many place to go,
so, they planned for a movie every 2nd day of chinese new year,
every year must be one.LOLz.
of course,
it came up with the movie called All Well's End's Well.
right,
on the other hand, my class's house visiting wont be too early,
it only will be going on on friday and saturday.
thats why i still have time blogging around here.
yeah, because my kampung is in KL,
my father was born in KL.
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hmm,
oh well,
have a friend that is going oversea tomorrow,
lucky for them to go oversea during CNY,
but then,
her flight was quite early, its around 6 in the morning.
pity her that she have to wait there for few hours without doing anything.
yeah right,
as you know,
you have be there 2 hours before for international flight.
thats why.
i remembered that time when i was about to go to china.
my flight was at 12.05am.
its quite late and i left my home to the airport at 8.20pm,
i remembered it very well.
but then,
all the way there,
its so boring until you have to wait and wait and wait.
really,you have nothing to do there.
i was lucky enough that i have a friend that time that she willing to spend her time to chat with me so that i am not lonely and boring enough.
yeah,
she even chat with me until i checked in my luggage and even just before i got into the plane.
i remembered the moment so clearly that i couldnt forget.
she actually sacrifice her time.
i am so sorry to her.
i know, although since then,after i came back,
we didnt have much time to chat together and so on,
but then,
i still appreciate and like the moment so much,
even that moment isnt true to me,maybe,
i still wondering if she simply saying or what,
but well,
i dont mind all these things as it actually brought my smile back even for just 1 or 2 weeks.
its still enough for me.
i was so happy during the journey although she wasnt around with me,
not that she is far away then i am happy,
but, just i am happy that she's there to chat with me even for one moment that time,
yeah,
honestly,
i have been listening to the same one song everyday before i went into my dream every night,
and even on every journey on the bus.
i never knew it didnt last long.
but,its okay i think.
i actually bought up quite some things for her.
but then,
there's still one in my cupboard,
and i was wondering whether to give or not.
its just not the right time anymore to give it out.
for now,
i even felt so awkward to talk to her even if i faced her.
i dont know what to talk to her and what to say.
yeah, even motions also i rarely show it out.
i am suppose to leave already,
the weeks of happiness has been ended.
yeah, pawned.
its doesnt seems so hurt to me now anymore.
it doenst.
i know i have to keep living.
but,
i realized,
do i really have dream.
a real real dream that i could forgo all these relationships and just go away.
i hope i could.
