Diary oh diary,
here i am again to speak out what in my mind today,
dairy oh diary,
i am so glad that you have been with me here since i was form 4 or 5,
you have been staying with me every single moment,
not leaving me no matter what situation.
i am so glad,
that i still have you here for me,
whenever i need you.

yes,
i am one different guy compared to other guys,
diary,
i am sure you always know what i mean,
in terms of what,
you knew it.
sometimes its an advantage for me,
however,
sometimes,
it becomes the mood spoiler,
i'm not to blame anyone on this,
because everything just happen like that.
i do always wanted to find my way to solve this,
i just dont really know when will i solve this problems.
hehehe.

i hope to explore as much as possible during my 3 years life here,
yes,
either together with all my friends, buddies or seniors,
i would like to do altogether with them,
having lesser responsibility and commitment compared to the others,
i might feel better,
but somehow humans are weird enough,
when you are given A, you wanted B,
but when when you are given B, you wanted A,
and so, you wanted both.
humans are greedy,
they want everything goes according to them,
but i always knew,
things never goes according to what we always wanted.
which is why,
i am here alone enjoying all my activities,
while some of the others have to go back to their partners,
not joining too much of the activities organized.
maybe, i was just saying maybe.
yea well,
since i am not in that group,
i dont know how does they feel when they have to do something else.

things dont goes smooth as we wanted,
i would always remember what TMK members told me,
its simple, but its one great line for me,
to be always keep in my mind.
" if you dont like something, try to change it;
if you cant change it, change your attitude."

its just meaningful enough for me.
i never regretted joining them despite haven been performing all these days,
but knowing them is my luck,
there is so much things to learn,
which i wouldnt have found it even in university,
i dont have this commitment but i do have the other one,
i know where i should go,
i know what i should do,
but sometimes,
it just dont goes right.

sometimes,
i do really hope any of you,
can talk to me,
bringing me some cheers.
then i would be happy enough to continue walking the rest of the day.